Every once in a while, a light comes through the clouds- it pierces us in our Toyotas, Hondas, wherever we are sitting, it stares down at us and draws us all to come close towards it. Sometimes we go for it but at times we don’t because we are afraid- afraid that we will get lost in it. I am a victim of this. I feel the urge to break from it, to let go of myself and just be free- and reach for it. To not constrain myself to rules so seriously—to not get burnt out on this journey. The light fades towards us- it swirls around- and we are, for a moment, whole. I feel that my Holga camera has taught me that—at first unsettling, but realizing that the images are different, as in a day, gone forever- the light truly captures that and consumes the film. Shooting with a Holga camera has engaged me on a level that I was not aware of, and I am reminded that it’s ok to make mistakes and take risks. In the end, we cannot control everything- it was just never meant to be that way.
The person that appears in these photos below is my friend Robin Denler. She is one of my photo classmates at the University at Buffalo.
HOLGA 120N// Kodak Ektar100 + Kodak Portra 400//